2024 Week 25: Bits and Bobs
Just thinking how different life would have been had we decided to reproduce. If you have kids your life has a template, or at least a "north star", for 2 decades at least. Very convenient. Jon and I would probably be doing the standard 40 hours a week job, zoning out to Disney+ and ordering GrabFood on weekends.
We wouldn't be feeling the malaise that comes from having too much freedom and bandwidth. We would be steeped in middle-class smugness and we would feel secure about our place in society. We probably wouldn't be in an open/polyamorous relationship. Good god, we might not even have all these pets!
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Reading Michael J Sandel's The Tyranny of Merit now. Feeling engaged because the book engages with some of the issues I mentioned in my last post. I realise that marinating in a meritocratic society for so long has really harmed us in some ways. If we can only move towards a more luck/fortune-based understanding of our positions in life, society would be a much nicer one to live in.
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I haven't been taking my last fortnight of the internship very seriously. I'm afraid it shows, because people have started asking why I don't go to the office. I guess the short answer is that I've lost interest.
I just don't care about people or children all that much. I met this volunteer whose face completely LIT UP when she talked about working with kids. Then I realised: omg, wait that's me with animals. I care more about taking the policymakers to task about inequality. Issues like housing policy and universal basic income, those are what I was more interested in. I guess it's very theoretical and academic rather than human.
However, at least I learnt some of the aspects of volunteer management and I think I do okay in this area. So not a total disaster! Volunteer management is definitely transferable, especially to other nonprofits.
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I told Joel I've gone from (a) "yay I have a purpose!" to (b) "oh shit my purpose kinda sucks" to (c) "omg I have no purpose again" to (d) "maybe purpose doesn't have to be grand; I can just tend to my humble little business and live well and kindly."
Maybe this stupid purpose thing is just a toxic construct to keep you striving needlessly and finding fault with your objectively wonderful life.
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A little grooming story:
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